felt like you were hiding something , but i didn ` t push it , didn ` t complain or say nothing .

my biggest mistake wasn ` t being your homie or your girlfriend . i don ` t regret the actions i took even if i knew @ the time they would turn out bad . my biggest mistake was trusting you fullout . you manipulated me , you used me , you purposely tried to break me . do you see me crying about it ? no . you failed . you tried to play a game you know nothing about w/ someone who has already played it a million times . im not here to beak you about it , im not here to bother w/ all that ’ you hurt me ’ shit . im choosing to step & keep my words to myself . i know exactly what is going down behind my back , if you don ` t even have the respect after you treat me that way to discontinue running your mouth about me , you ` re not doing a very good job deading this . people are going to talk about you , especially when they got something on you or the life you live , let them . you affected their lives , but they didn’t affect yours . there ` s no point in furthering this , i know where i stand .

i miss you & things arent the same ..

im not stressing the fact that he stepped , im really okaaay . im not wasting my breath trying to get him back , it ` s not even crossing my mind . he ` s been in my thoughts but nothing i can think of to make me wanna start over . i think i js realized we will never get back to that point . there was only so many chances i could hand out & he burned through all of them . he doesn ` t want another one , so i won ` t be there to give it to him . im busting a mission back to sk thursday & im not even concerned about seeing his ass . im done focusing on the negative aspects of shit . never again will i rely on a shady ass dude . & nobody will ever have my fullout love & respect again , down for me & only me .